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Part 2 to my coming out story...

Shortly after I came out to my best friend I met another girl, who happened to be quite a bit younger than myself.  I know, I know, sick right? Not really.  She was taller than me and when I first met her I thought she was my age.  We snuck out to movies almost every day together.  She helped me feel happy again.

Two weeks in my parents told me that they needed to talk to me. The date was October 21, 2009, about a year ago.  I waited for them up in my room, having no idea what this talk could possibly be about.  They basically told me that they knew I was dating this girl, and they knew I was gay.  I was told that I should get out of that relationship because of how young she was.  I had always known they were right, and it was tough, but I did get out of it.

My parents said that they had kind of always wondered if I was gay.  To this day, I honestly don't know how they figured out I was dating this girl.  I was very sneaky about it.  My dad at the time basically told me he thought I would grow out of it.  Like it was acne or something.  I asked him if he would grow out of liking girls someday too. He didn't say anything after that.  My mom got teary eyed.  I think she was sad that I would always be rejected by society, maybe not be able to have kids, and maybe not be able to get married.  It definitely wasn't the best conversation I've ever had with my parents.

The next year up to today was the best and worst of my life.  I was in a relationship with someone I didn't really mesh well with.  But, I learned a lot from the whole thing.  I've learned that no one should ever settle for anything that isn't exactly what they want.  That I should listen to my heart, but maybe mix that in with a little logic as well. Next time I want to take it a lot slower, and really think about if this is the person I want to be with for the rest of my life.  Sometimes I think we all jump into something to recover.  This is something that is a temporary happiness, and was never meant to last forever.  I wish I would have realized that sooner.

Since I got out of that relationship, I have met so many wonderful people.  I feel like I am really on the right track again.  All of these people are like my angels helping me through this.  For once in a long time, I feel like no one is holding me back.  I can take on the world again.  And it is all because of these amazing people that I can do this.  I am very thankful for everyone in my life, and all that they have done.

A lot of people think being gay is a fad.  Not something we were born with, but something that is nurtured into us.  The funny thing is, most of these people aren't gay!  I was born this way.  I remember my first crush on a girl was in elementary school.  At the time, I didn't understand my feelings because I didn't even honestly know what being gay was at the time.  But, I have always been this way.  However, ignorance is not something given up easily, so I guess if people want to think that being gay is nurture not nature, then there is nothing I can do about that.  Think what you what I suppose.